That’s what I have been thinking about doing again. Escaping a life that no longer brings me joy, nor does it make any sense.
I used to dream of going to Europe-England, Ireland. get a job on a farm somewhere, live a quiet life as an Irish lass. Now I just want out. The continental US [...]
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Leaving
Posted in Uncategorized on October 31, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Waxing Philosophic
Posted in Uncategorized on October 29, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Everyone has demons. Everyone deals with them differently. Some people drink, some smoke, some do drugs. Still others have sex with strangers. Are those evils? Or warped coping mechanisms? If they’re warped, are they really a way to cope? Or just a way to provide momentary escape?
Is it necessarily a “demon”, or “evil” if it [...]
Changes
Posted in Uncategorized on October 28, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Changes. They happen all the time. The seasons change. Day changes into night, and night into day. Babies grow… They change from babies to toddlers, toddlers to children, children to teens, teens to adults. People change their hair color.
There have been a lot of changes in my life lately. Good schanges. I am single again, [...]
A Good Indication That There is a Problem
Posted in Uncategorized on June 26, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Making up your own logic. I used to tell myself, and everyone else within earshot, who may or may not have been listening, that contrary to popular belief, I did not have a problem. I reasoned that I got up every morning, regardless of how much I had had to drink the night before and [...]
72 Hours
Posted in Uncategorized on June 25, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
72 Hours… That is how long it has been since I have had a drink. That is the longest I have been without a drink in I don’t even know how long. I feel better than I have in years. I feel refreshed, alive. Focused.
I also don’t feel bloated. Which is a strange feeling. I [...]
UGH… Food Poisoning
Posted in Uncategorized on June 24, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Or, as I have decided to call it, rapid detox.
I had a very rare burger on Saturday. I have always eaten my red meat that way, and have never had a problem. I also met some friends out for some cocktails that night. So, when I woke up Sunday morning feeling ‘not quite right’, I [...]
This Isn’t Necessarily a New Problem
Posted in Uncategorized on June 17, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
When I was 22 or 23, I had a nervous breakdown. I actually carved a slit in my left wrist with a regular old steak knife. I then walked very calmly into the living room and told my Mom to call 911.
I had gone out drinking the night before, and the guy I was dating [...]
UGH… Mondays
Posted in Uncategorized on June 16, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
I am such not a morning person. Especially on Mondays. Especially on Mondays when i have slept like crap the night before. I tried to go to bed at like 11 last night, and stayed partially awake until 3 or 4. Then I woke up at 5, and then again at 6. It was also [...]
About Me…
Posted in Uncategorized on June 12, 2008 | Leave a Comment »
Well, I think the tagline says it all. I am 28 years old and weigh 240 pounds. I am 5′51/2″ tall.
The three things I will write about are all related. Because of a depression I was wallowing in, I abused ~and at times still do~ alcohol. Which of course led to the weight gain. Which [...]
