Changes. They happen all the time. The seasons change. Day changes into night, and night into day. Babies grow… They change from babies to toddlers, toddlers to children, children to teens, teens to adults. People change their hair color.
There have been a lot of changes in my life lately. Good schanges. I am single again, closing the door on a big part of my life. 41/2 years. From 24 to almost 29. And out of that have come the changes in me.
I am calmer. I don’t feel the erratic energy I did for so long. I don’t drink myself into a stupor to escap emy life. I feel at peace with myself. I sip wine instead gulp, i savor the flavor and the color, instead of searching for the numbness it would bring me.
It is strange to say the phrase “ex-boyfriend”. To think in single terms-”I”, as opposed to “we”. There is no more “he and I”. There is just me. And I am ok with that. I like being by myself right now. To have the time do be introspective. To relearn who “I” am, outside the realm of being a “we”. To see myself as a whole, instead a half of something else.
